So many emotions at once

Do you ever get to where you feel like 10 different emotions or what feels like 10 different emotions at once? Do you constantly have stuff running through your mind?

I do and right now it's horrible.
Though it probably doesn't help that I feel like crap.

I'm mad,annoyed, frustrated, ticked off, stressed, happy, annoyed at someone, confused, did I say frustrated oh yeah I did lol, hurt, sad, angry, and soo much more

I am annoyed by a few people, some I love dearly which sucks b/c I see them or want to see them, some I don't see often or not at all, some that I see everyday and well can't do anything about.

I'm pissed about a few things, things that have been going on for a while, things that for a long time I kept getting told was totally all in my head or I was overreacting. Now supposedly things are being seen how I have always seen them but nothing is being done.

I want to scream, I want to punch someone, I want to just go away and stay away for awhile. I want to have my own little family off in our own little world just the 3 of us. Ugh I want to be left alone yet my personality won't let me b/c I love being around people too much, communicating with people too much and well I'm nosy so that's another reason lol.

I'm hurt by those that I love b/c they choose to have others come before me others that are not family, and I'm not the only one that they are choosing to have others come before, i'm not the only family. That should help but sadly it doesn't, it makes it worse b/c it means it's getting worse with that person and how that person is.

However, with all that I'm angry,mad,pissed etc about I am happy and I'm thankful for that b/c of the reason. I have my husband and my child. They keep me somewhat sane, though some days they cause my insanity lol.

Ugh I'm gonna end this now, I'm all mixed up and this isn't helping like I thought it would.

I'm an Aunt

If you haven't already heard I'm an Aunt. Wow that is soo weird to say lol Here I am almost 30 years old and finally an Aunt. My nephew, Ethan James was born on Tuesday June 30, 2009 at 5:28 pm. My sister had quite the ordeal trying to have her little one lol. She was suppose to go into the hospital 10pm Sunday night to get the inducing process started b/c she was a week late as of the following day she was suppose to be there. Well she called the hospital and they didn't have her scheduled, they had her scheduled for TODAY lol yes today July 6th, she was due June 22 lol. So anyways, everything went as planned if not better. She was barely in labor for 12 hours when he decided to come. However he had problems breathing, which was due to swallowing some fluid when he was born. He was fine after that, then they thought he had an enlarged heart and did an x ray, well it showed it was enlarged, so they did a sono it showed it wasn't, then they did a cat scan and an ekg and both came back as him having a normal sized heart. They did figure out he had a valve that wasn't quite closed. That closed on it's own and they let him go home Friday afternoon. Then Sunday, my sister had to take him into the hospital b/c his heart was beating too fast. They had to literally stop his heart and restart it, so in a sense he died and was brought back to life by all technicalities. He is doing good now, they took him by ambulance, a special one that is basically a hospital on wheels to our childrens hospital and gave him meds. According to the Pediatric Cardiologists there they see this every couple weeks or so with new borns. Kind of scary to think that new borns have this happen so often. So anyways, if you pray please keep them in your prayers. God has really been watching out for this little boy.

I've decided my sister and I can't have normal kids, no they have to have something happen to them or have something go wrong so that they can get all kinds of extra attention lol Anyways, being an aunt is gonna be fun and cool I think. Loralei is excited. She is soo excited to have a cousin, however, Ethan coming along has prompted her to ask for a baby brother... so yeah that will be interesting to see lol as it won't be happening. She'll just have to settle for a baby cousin that's a boy, he can be like her brother lol I mean they're only almost 6 years apart so it's not too bad. I can't wait to see how she is with him, she can't wait to hold him and kiss him and touch him. She's only seen him through the glass in the nursery at the hospital. When I get pics I will post them. Oh and Kenny is finally an Uncle too, he never thought he would be one since he's an only child, but here he is, an Uncle Kenny lol.

If you are an Aunt or Uncle, post your most favorite memory with one of your nieces or nephews or the best thing about being an Aunt/Uncle to you.

I suck, OMG I really do!

Ok so I haven't written in over a month ugh, I'm a horrible blogger. I suck at it lol

Anyways, some updates, we have moved YAY, love moving, love the packing love lugging everything from one place to the other and oh yeah the best ever is unpacking, YES man it's awesome, putting things away, finding where to put things that work for you, going through stuff for a second time, b/c the first time was when you packed lol So you get rid of more stuff. Yeah love it all.

Ok if you believed that baloney up there then you must either A) Like moving or B) sick in the head for liking to do that. Other than the getting rid of stuff I hate the other. SO yeah now we're in a new place, at the very least for a couple years. We want to save up money to get our own place.

Now Kenny isn't soo sure b/c well he's not happy staying in one place. He doesn't like settling in one place for too long, but he has to deal b/c we have a child and she isn't going to get moved around and uprooted just b/c he's bored where we live. He will have to get over it. I grew up moving every two years or so till I was 14, then I moved in with my dad and stayed in the same place for over 4 years, that ladies and gentlemen is a record for me for living in a place for any length of time. Sad isn't it?

So anyways, I told him we won't be moving around after we get a place, we need our own place that we don't have to worry about a landlord or anything, that we can make choices of what we want in our home without getting permission, so Loralei can make her room her room and not have to change it all the time. Not to mention she's at the age where she's making friends that could be life long friends. I want her to have that, I didn't have that and it sucks. My sister has it, with friends she met in 7th grade, they are all still really strong friends, even after all these years. It sucks not to be able to say oh yeah I've known so and so for this long and we're the best of friends we're inseperable. I have friends from HS and even JH and a couple from elementary school but I'm not close to any of them. We keep in touch, sorta, but that's it. I want Loralei to have what I didn't, isn't that what we all want for our kids? To have the things we never had or got to have for one reason or another? I've already seen how us moving in the last couple years has affected her, it's hard on her and I don't want that for her anymore. So this was our second to last move, the next one WILL be to a permanent place at least for the next 5 to 10 years or so if not longer.

So we are in the process of unpacking and getting settled. Once we do I will take pics of our new place and of our backyard, that's the best part, Loralei has a backyard to play in and we get to do a garden. YAY

Also I'm giong to try to blog more. I have soo much I want to blog about but don't ever do it.

Flip Flops and Me

Ok so I have to come out, some of you know it and some would say but duh it's obvious, you live in Florida. Well actually if you look around there are a lot of people here who wear tennis shoes or heels too so it's not quite so obvious lol. So Anyways, here it is, I'm beyond addicted to Flip Flops, I love love love Flip Flops, I comment to people about their flip flops, I'm always looking at flip flops, I have two key chains on my keys and both are yep you guessed it, flip flops, one needs to seriously go, but I can't part with it. I have flip flop magnets, my mom even got me flip flop candle holders for outside and inside. I just love flip flops, not just wearing them but the cute stuff that they come on and in, oh and I have a little notepad that is a flip flop with paper feet lol

Anyways just had to get that off my chest lol Oh and I have about 20 pairs of flip flops, my sister got me my favorite pair that I wear all the time for my birthday last year. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE Flip Flops. Oh and did I mention I wear them year round? I can't stand tennis shoes, other than for the gym, I dont' wear them, and then after I'm done at the gym, the minute I get into the car, the shoes come off and the flip flops go on. This is one thing I never want to get help for, it's a healthy obsession, just the right amount of obsession right? Shake your head yes lol

Something Every Girl Needs, especially Me!

Ok you know how you have those shirts that miraculously somehow shrink and are too short? (we really know what happens but we'll blame it on the washing and drying of it lol) And you know how you just love that shirt and you don't want to get rid of it? Well now you don't have to. There is a new thing that is out called the the Hip T that helps take care of that.

I soo am getting one of these, even with losing inches/weight, some of my shirts are a little too short so I need this to help with that and it looks good. Just go look over at Pour Some Sugar on Me, she has a blog about it and she is giving one away. So go check her out, you can either click on the link in here the button to the right. She has a picture of her wearing one and you can't even tell it's not a shirt underneath the other one.

Even if I don't win one, I will be buying one. Esp for working out, and I bet it makes you look a little slimmer too lol

Rain Rain Don't Go Away

I just have to say I am loving our weather right now.

IT"S POURING DOWN RAIN!! Oh and Lightning and Thundering too. The fact that there are tornadoes nearby is no biggie lol. I am just loving this. I love love love thunderstorms with a passion,AS LONG as they don't make the electricity go out, then I get annoyed. Other than that bring them on. I sleep soo good when we have thunderstorms, I love listening to the thunder and the rain just pouring down.

I can't wait for the summer for it to rain like this at least 2 or 3 times a week. Yeah it's annoying sometimes b/c it interferes with daily life but sometimes it's nice, esp when we have hot hot days like we have had the last few weeks. We really really need the rain, we are literally in a drought, our city doesn't have enough water to supply us and are actually thinking of using reclaimed water, YUCK!!!!! How disgusting, they can keep their reclaimed water, I'll fill up a landfill drinking my bottled water thank you very much.

I'm Still ALive

Man it's been ages. I keep meaning to come and update about what's going on in my life, but I forget or I get busy doing other things.

Things are ok, hectic, but ok. A lot's been going on. Went to the Dr, have to have surgery on my right knee, he wants to do a scope and fix whatever is messed up. Yeah not looking forward to that at all, being laid up, NOT my idea of fun by any stretch of the imagination. So that is suppose to happen in June but it's looking more like July with K's schedule and whatnot. So I will let you know (I promise I will) when it's going to happen.

Hmm what else, oh yeah K and I have been going to the gym and working out, he more so b/c I've been not feeling well lately but I love it and he does too and he has already lost quite a bit. I've lost 4 inches total (last measuring) and he lost 9 inches total last measuring, we'll measure tonight and see where he's at.

The summer heat has hit us and it's miserable, it sucks. it's almost impossible to go out and do anything and forget a/c in the car, it's too dang hot to contend with, by the time it starts cooling off if it does at all, you're already where you were going and it starts all over.

Oh and the darn love bugs are out, if you're never dealt with them OMG they are a PITA. Serioulsy they are, they also like to take the paint off your car if you don't get them off right away and you dont' wax your car.

I'm not feeling good so I think that's it for now. Just wanted to update since I've been told I never update which is true lol. I will come back again soon with more when I'm more coherent in my head and not all rambling.