I suck, OMG I really do!

Ok so I haven't written in over a month ugh, I'm a horrible blogger. I suck at it lol

Anyways, some updates, we have moved YAY, love moving, love the packing love lugging everything from one place to the other and oh yeah the best ever is unpacking, YES man it's awesome, putting things away, finding where to put things that work for you, going through stuff for a second time, b/c the first time was when you packed lol So you get rid of more stuff. Yeah love it all.

Ok if you believed that baloney up there then you must either A) Like moving or B) sick in the head for liking to do that. Other than the getting rid of stuff I hate the other. SO yeah now we're in a new place, at the very least for a couple years. We want to save up money to get our own place.

Now Kenny isn't soo sure b/c well he's not happy staying in one place. He doesn't like settling in one place for too long, but he has to deal b/c we have a child and she isn't going to get moved around and uprooted just b/c he's bored where we live. He will have to get over it. I grew up moving every two years or so till I was 14, then I moved in with my dad and stayed in the same place for over 4 years, that ladies and gentlemen is a record for me for living in a place for any length of time. Sad isn't it?

So anyways, I told him we won't be moving around after we get a place, we need our own place that we don't have to worry about a landlord or anything, that we can make choices of what we want in our home without getting permission, so Loralei can make her room her room and not have to change it all the time. Not to mention she's at the age where she's making friends that could be life long friends. I want her to have that, I didn't have that and it sucks. My sister has it, with friends she met in 7th grade, they are all still really strong friends, even after all these years. It sucks not to be able to say oh yeah I've known so and so for this long and we're the best of friends we're inseperable. I have friends from HS and even JH and a couple from elementary school but I'm not close to any of them. We keep in touch, sorta, but that's it. I want Loralei to have what I didn't, isn't that what we all want for our kids? To have the things we never had or got to have for one reason or another? I've already seen how us moving in the last couple years has affected her, it's hard on her and I don't want that for her anymore. So this was our second to last move, the next one WILL be to a permanent place at least for the next 5 to 10 years or so if not longer.

So we are in the process of unpacking and getting settled. Once we do I will take pics of our new place and of our backyard, that's the best part, Loralei has a backyard to play in and we get to do a garden. YAY

Also I'm giong to try to blog more. I have soo much I want to blog about but don't ever do it.

Christmas

So we are less than 24 hours away from Christmas officially being here and I'm actually excited. Sad that it has taken me so long to get excited for Christmas but I am and that's all that matters. Sad b/c I allowed all the stuff that shouldn't get to me to cloud why I really celebrate Christmas, what Christmas means to me, why it's not just a day of presents and food and family. For me it's the celebration, the birthday of my Savior, my Lord, Jesus. A little over 2000 years ago He was born in a manger and died 33 years later for me. I am sad with myself that I let the hoopla that has been created in today's society cloud and affect how I should have been feeling all along. Happy and in awe, rejoicing His birth, content in all that He has done for me and those around me.

I got soo caught up in the wordly aspect of it all, the shopping (or lack there of for me) for presents for people, the whole we have to do this and do that, all the issues that come with Christmas year after year. I got to help people out this year. Our church among about 21 other churches got together and did this thing called Feed the Bay. It was really neat. After church (and sitting through one of the shortest sermons I've ever sat through in my life, no lie it was like 10 mins max lol) people from the churches went shopping for food, not for ourselves or our families but for others. We were given a list of foods that food pantries need and so we went and shopped for them then gave them to the drop off places right there at the store. The two major chains here Publix and Sweetbay (Sweetbay rocked b/c they gave 5% of the what was bought back to Feed the Bay) were who sponsored it. Then my Lifegroup went to a Food Pantry and we helped stock the shelves. There was soo much food (in total we all collected about 270,000lbs of food) but yet it was going to be no where near enough to last them very long. Yet it felt good to help out, even that tiny bit that I did. Then we just gave money to help build wells in other countries where they don't have running water or even anything close to clean water to Water for Life . It was just money to us but it was more than that, it was us giving what we would have used for presents to help others giving something that would only make others temporarily happy to those that will affect their lives forever.

My Lifegroup adopted this family who have 4 kids, the mother is on disability and the father had to stop working to help take care of her and the kids (the kids are 10, 4,3,and 2). So they didn't know how they were going to give them a Christmas this year esp with how the economy has been. I took the 10 year old as I have a 10 year old sister as some of you know and she likes all the things that this 10 year old liked plus Loralei likes it too so it was easy for me. So here's the funny/cool part. I was emailing my Lifegroup leader to tell them we would take the 10 year old. I didn't even pay attention to the name just the age and Loralei was talking and was like oh Destiny (my sister) is 10 too, that's cool mommy. Then I look down at my phone (which is where I was emailing from) and saw the name of the little girl. Her name is also Destiny. So anyways I just thought that was kind of cool and neat and would share :) So I hope they have a Merry Christmas and we know that the parents are very thankful for the gifts for the kids as they repeatedly tell our Lifegroup leader.

So it felt good to help those people and put things back into perspective of what this holiday is all about. Giving and helping and loving and just being with those that you love and care for and remembering what the day is all about to me and many others, the birth of Jesus Christ. Not presents, not food, not having a good ol time. There is nothing wrong with any of that, but that's not what Christmas is about, not to me anyways. It's remembering that Christ was born for us so that He could die 33 years later so that we could one day go to Heaven when we die if we choose to accept Him as our Savior and ask for forgiveness of our sins. His Love for us!

We also scaled back on what we are getting/got Loralei for Christmas. We are not going overboard anymore. This child has more toys and clothes and books and whatever else you can think of than she knows what to do with them. So we just got her a few things and that's it. Nothing huge or special. We didn't get a tree this year b/c of her behavior and her not listening, now before someone gasps and goes OMG how could you not get a tree, she has a tree that is like 2 feet that we are going to use, it's not like she has some huge presents she is getting from us so it doesn't matter. It was actually nice to not have to worry about a tree this year. Though possibly it would have helped me get in the Christmas mood but who knows lol

So Christmas is almost here and I'm excited. Can't wait to see how she reacts to her presents we got her and to celebrate the birth of my Savior. Oh and to have good yummy food too doesn't hurt :) Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!! Love all of you and wish I could be with you all on Christmas, we could have some fun! God Bless everyone!