25 Firsts

25 Firsts

Stealing this from Sarah

"25 Firsts"

1. Who was your first prom date? Sadly, I never had a prom date. No guys liked me enough to ask me.

2. Do you still talk to your first love? hmmm this is a hard one to answer

3. What was your first alcoholic drink? Um ok if DCF had ever seen this when I was younger my dad would soo be in jail lol. He actually let me have drinks of his daiquiris when he made them

4. What was your first job? Other than babysitting, working at a gas station that a family friend owned. I was 18. But before that I had tons and tons of babysitting jobs.

5. What was your first car? A 1994 Chevy Astro. I got it free from a family that we knew through our church. Was a pretty good van, had it up until the day before we got married when it decided to die on us. I had it a good 3 years so not too bad.

6. Who was the first person to text you today? No one text me today. I haven't been texting much lately.

7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning? Loralei, it's always Loralei

8. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Little. I actually got to see her a couple years ago b/c my little sister (who is 19 years difference in age from me) had her as a teacher. Pretty cool. She actually remembered me too. Now that's a teacher lol

9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane? I was 2 I think and it was to Wisconsin to see my grandparents.

10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk? Nina and Dana, they were twins and no I haven't seen them since 7th grade. We didn't see each other after 1st grade, met up again in 7th, then b/c of peer pressure and crap, they decided they didn't want to be friends with me b/c I wasn't in the cool crowd.

11. Where was your first sleepover? Other than with family, I'm almost positive with Nina and Dana, we were always together.

12. Who was the first person you talked to today? Loralei

13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time? My step cousin's a long time ago, I think I was 11? I can't remember, but the dress was ugly.

14. What was the first thing you did this morning? Hmm got Loralei her inhaler and then made sausage gravy and biscuits for breakfast.

15. What was the first concert you went to? Chipmunks lol Does that count? If not then New Kids On The Block

16. First tattoo? Butterfly on inside of my left wrist, I was 28 I think

17. First piercing? Ears at 4 or 5 I think

18. First foreign country you went to? LOL Does Canada count? That's the only other country I've been to. Haven't traveled much in my life.

19. First movie you remember seeing? Follow that Bird or ET, can't remember which I saw first or was it Star Wars.I'd have to ask my Dad.

20. What state did you first live in? FLORIDA

21. Who was your first room mate? a girl named Lisa

22. When was your first detention? I think 6th grade but I forget what it was, the other time was 7th grade for supposedly cheating which I didn't do.

24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance? Draw or paint, I have so many things I would love to draw or paint but have no talent for it.

25. Who will be the next person to post this? Hopefully all of you!

Confession #2

I can no longer watch scary/horror movies and forget the ones with blood and gore lol.

I don't know what it is, but about 7 years ago, actually maybe a little before that, whenever the first The Ring came out, after seeing that IDK, something happened and I can't watch them. Well I can watch some, as long as it's during the day and with hubby. Other than that, forget it, I'm a huge wuss. I think it's b/c I've have extremely vivid dreams and tend to dream about movies I see when I see them and I replay stuff in my mind all the time. Who knows, so I'm a big scaredy cat and can't watch scary movies lol

Confession #1

Ok so I'm thinking of doing a confession a week or whenever it hits me to do one. Like a guilty pleasure or something gross that I do or you know just something weird, and with me, you never know what might come out. So anyways, here's the first of I'm thinking many to come. Oh and feel free to post your own confessions.

Ok so even though I'm only 30, I'm seriously thinking I need depends or something. On several occassions lately, I have peed myself when I've sneezed or coughed. Yes, it's quite sad, but I do think it's not all my fault. I have a little girl who I can blame, it's all her fault, she made me do it. Seriously, when I was pregnant with her, she sat on my bladder so I think it forgot how to work without something 7 pounds sitting on it or oh hold on, wait, could it also be that I sometimes forget I have to pee and have a full bladder? Hmmm guess I'll never know will I. Anyways that's my confession for now.

Go ahead and report me

Ok so I'm going to be stepping on some toes. I've already done it on Facebook. I've got people I'm sure hiding me on there, their loss, and it's sad really.

I posted yesterday about something that happened here in Tampa, something with our Senator, Senator Kathy Castor. There was a town hall meeting and in the meeting she ended up leaving b/c people were getting loud and rowdy b/c she was basically trying to smooth everyone over about the Health Care reform, most were there to oppose it. Well she being the small person that she is, and being like the majority of the other Democrat leaders out there said that the people there who were protesting against it were not there on their own, they were part of some bigger scheme, they were part of an insurance company or drug company b/c she knows that they are against it so they got a bunch of people together and bussed them there. Not true.

Why is it is soo hard for the Democrats that approve of the health care reform to see that people are against it without calling them names or claiming something false against them? Oh and don't you just LOVE how our wonderful president has broken the law now, by asking people to report their friends,loved ones etc if they speak out against them?

People have been saying for a long time that Obama was trying to turn our country into a socialist country, Democrats/Obama supporters/ Republican haters all denied it, said that it was all a conspiracy thing and things people just were making up. Here it is 8 months into his presidency and he's already pulling a socialist act. Socialist and Communist countries are the ones that ask you to turn in your friends and your loved ones if they go against the gov't. Not democratic countries.

People, AMERICA, come on wake up and smell the coffee, Obama is trying to change our country for the worst. He's not done one single thing he's promised to do for us. He's put us in greater debt, lost more jobs, and now he's trying to make us lose our healthcare. He wants to take what we have away and not give us anything in return. He's only out for himself.

I'm seriously scared of what's going to happen in the next 3 years based on what he's done just in the 8 months he's been in office. I'm afraid to see what this country will be like when he's finished with it. I don't see a happy ending, I hope there is, but I don't see it. That is why I put all my trust and faith in God, b/c I know that He put Obama in office for a reason, some reason that as far as I can tell most other Christians are still trying to figure out and can't fathom what it could be. But there is a reason, I trust in my Savior that I will be ok, but it still doesn't make me less afraid of what our country will be like in 3 years and 4 months.

Swagbucks.com

I found out about Swagbucks.com from a blog I follow Pour Some Sugar on Me. It's really neat. You search for something and you get points/bucks and then you can take those and redeem them for stuff. How much more awesome could it be. Anyways, go check it out and let me know what you think. Oh and don't forget to check my blog down below for a challenge I've put to everyone out there.

ONE Question,Chance,Honest Answer

ONE??? Yep, well not exactly. Here's the deal, You can ask me one question and I will give you an honest answer no matter how hard it is to do or how much I don't want to for whatever reason.

Email it to me at rgumbie09@aol.com and I will answer you back asap. If you're brave you'll do the same. I dare all that read this to do it, to put yourself out there to be honest to any questions asked of you. Make sure in the title you put Blog Question so I know that it's from someone reading this and not spam.

High Anxiety

Ok so I was going to wait till later in the week to write about this but maybe writing about it will get it out and help me. Afterall that's what I started this whole thing for. To help with my thoughts and feelings.

Here goes, I'm turning 30, this coming Sunday I'm turning 30. Now you would think my anxiety would be about the age, as I have found most people don't want to leave their 20's they seem to think some weird thing is gonna happen or they're going to change into this monster that only happens when you turn 30. Who knows, I will never understand the whole thing about age. To me aging is normal,natural and beautiful. I have no qualms about getting older, I look forward to it somewhat.

No, No my anxiety is about my birthday. I try not to think about it, but it always sneaks up and slips into my thoughts. Let me just put it this way, I hate my birthday. Ever since I was little,I literally can not remember a good birthday. Something always goes wrong. One year, when I was little, actually I was 5, it started out ok, I got somewhat a surprise birthday party, my best friend at the time, her parents owned a local bar, well we went to see Follow that Bird (you know the one with Big Bird) and then went back to their bar (yes I was a 5 year old in a bar lol) while my family got things together for my party. My dad made me a Smurfette cake, you know, with those pans that you cook the cake and then decorate it, yep my dad did that and did the decorating too. I'll have to find the pic sometime. Anyways, my uncle decided to mess with the light over the table where the cake was and well the light shade came crashing down on it, destroying my cake and all the food around it. Then other years it was little things here and there but enough to make the day a bad day. Oh and one year in HS, you'll love this, we had a hurricane coming our way so everything was shut down, so we couldn't even go out eat on my birthday, now that sucked.

Growing up we didn't get big parties or anything, we were lucky to get a special meal. Which that usually consisted of our favorite meal, nothing elaborate, not that I think it should have been just explaining. Most kids have some kind of a small party, for the first 9 years of my life other than the one party when I was 5 and the other 4 before that, I didn't have a party. Then we barely had parties and if we did, I ended up doing tons of work to help get them together which meant I had to clean the whole house top to bottom and help with the food, however it was always just family, never friends as I never had any friends. We moved around so much I didn't get to make friends long enough to invite them to my parties, not to mention I don't think they would have been allowed as my mom and her husband were heavy smokers and no one wants their child around that. With my father it was a little bit better, I still didn't have friends to invite to a party, so we were given the option, the 4 of us (my sister, brother, ex step sister and myself) to go to a theme park, we had to decide as a whole where we wanted to go. Or we could have a party. If only two wanted to go and the others a party, then that's what it was.

That wasn't so bad, we would go to a park, sometime in the summer as our birthdays were in June,August and September. So we would get to go plus get either money to spend there or a present for a certain amount. I always chose the park b/c like I said I never had any friends. I eventually I was able to at 16 years old to have my first birthday party with friends. That was awesome, but yet still something happened to make it get messed up. So I tried again about 3 years later with people from my college group. That was not bad at all, probably the 2nd best out of all my birthdays. Out of now 30 birthdays, I've had from what I can remember 2 birthdays that were good.

2 years ago, on my actual birthday, we were going out to eat with my dad and a friend and my car broke down, it was raining and I had a little one in the car. On top of that, my husband decided he would try to make me think that he forgot my birthday so I didn't get a happy birthday from him till he came to pick me up while broke down.

Another year, the day before my birthday, I got pulled over and arrested falsely, yeah that one was fun. Last year other than Breaking Dawn coming out, I had massive anxiety and was stressed b/c we threw a party for my ex step sister who was going away and myself. So I was having to throw together my own party and hers as well. And I was at that point getting no sleep so it was a horrible day of me crying uncontrollably, I had to hide in my closet from Loralei b/c I didnt' want to bring her down.

So anyways, that brings me to now, my birthday now. I dont' want it to come, I don't. I just want the day to go by and nothing to happen. I want to turn 30 and that be it. Things are not better for this year so far. Things have not been great for us the last 10 months in more ways than one and part of it will affect my birthday.


Aggh ok so I took a breather and I know, I was whining up there but I need to whine, I needed to get it out. I still didn't get it all out but it's all good. I am sure this will not be a read most people will want to read but that's ok, it's not for others as much as it is for myself.